I woke up early this morning..
I don't normally write blogs. I don't normally have very much to share beyond pictures. But it's a time of transition, a time of trust, and a time of growth. Living intentionally and adventurously.
"Even to your old age and gray hairs I am he, I am he who will sustain you. I have made you and I will carry you; I will sustain you and I will rescue you." -Isaiah 46:4
When Dodge and I got married in May, we assumed that post wedding life would return to normal and we would keep on keeping on in the tiny town that we had been living in, me for the past seven years and him for the majority of his life. Prior to the wedding I had always felt a little restless, a little bored, and a little bit overly worked as I tried to distract myself. Fast forward to our engagement, YAY, major distraction of planning our wedding in a new and exciting place. Fast forward to the wedding, it was beautiful, some of our absolute FAVORITE people surrounded us and Aanna Chase took some amazing photos for us. But as we drove back from Washington to Iowa after the wedding, I started to ask why? Why are we moving back? Why are we settling for a rather boring life? Why are we limiting our adventures?
Dodge and I have found that our best heart to heart talks are on walks. When we walk and talk we explore possibilities and talk things out without distraction. At first when we arrived back in Iowa we busied ourselves with opening the beautiful gifts that people had so warmly gifted us and settling into our cozy basement apartment. Once we were settled and back to our walks, we realized that there was a bit of a void that wedding planning had filled in our conversation as we would walk. Enter the increase in rumbling and stirrings of feeling like there was more that we were missing. Dodge wasn't working and felt like there wasn't local opportunity for him, I was working with wonderful people, but without fulfilment. We wanted more.
We started talking more seriously about what it would be like to live our lives with more adventures. We talked about new places, new opportunities, and those rumblings and stirrings kindled a small fire within us. After tossing around a few possibilities, we settled on Washington State. We liked the idea of Seattle, but wanted to start a little more manageably, so we decided on my home town. We thought of this as a room to grow adventure.
As I am writing this, it has been two weeks since we arrived. Two weeks of temporarily settling into the safety and comfort of my parents home as we work toward jobs and an apartment. Two weeks of stress and uncertainty, but in these two weeks I have started to venture further into my creative passions and my business. I am definitely creating a lot of work for myself, you should see my self inflicted massive to do list, but I am working toward a bigger goal of living intentionally in life and work. When I started my business four years ago, I was scared to set goals, I was scared to put myself out there, I was scared of failure. As I work to relaunch my business as a Washington wedding photographer, yes I am still scared, but there is no chance of adventure without the risk of failure. God is reminding me "I will sustain you" and I can't help but feel a sense of peace and excitement.
Follow my adventure.